Hi Kids,
Nolan, Ciara, and Dylan:
A letter could have been address to each one of you, asking how you are almost every day. But I never did that. Why? Because I choose not to. Not because I never wanted that experience, it was mainly because of the unknown. When I say unknown, it’s like jumping off the high diving board for your first time in life. From the bottom it looks pretty high, and then while climbing the ladder to the top, you are all alone and either you jump off or turn around. Some may have a fear while others have no idea of what is really happening so they just jump. Then when you splash in the water, you feel have accomplished something that you could do it again. Or perhaps, be terrified and not do it again. What did I exactly do? Jump, turn around, or just only climb the ladder?
Your mother questioned myself, and asked if I ever wrote to you. Now, is that something that your mother would wish that I did or something that all of you needed? Another unknown answer. I believe in a child’s mind, a child wants a sense of belonging and feel a pride in their parents of being loved as a whole family. I will always be your father who completely loves you and feel so much pride in who each unique person who you are and all become.
So? What did I do? Jump, climb the ladder or turn around. The answer is, I don’t know what I did, since it is the unknown. But I am here now, since I know who we all are, a family who is known as Nolan, Ciara, Dylan, your mother and I (Dad) who gives pride in one of another that will shape those letters in the past to be known for future generations to come.
Love DAD XOXO