So many days have went on, where I couldn’t do the following but still recall:
- In the middle of the night, coming to the bedside and asking for a drink of water. Where I hear you cough and knowing your mother wakes up all the time and goes to your bedroom. Then having you sleep beside your Mom and me. Then I wake up in the morning, while your mother whispers to me, to be quiet that one of you is sleeping in our bed. I get up and just stare at both of you sleeping so peacefully. Sometimes in awkward positions where you mother and I giggle. Then you wake up and I see both your faces. Where it is like I see your mother in all of you. Something that I am proud and so is your mother that your all our children. The bedroom has your scent, where I know that it is your own bedroom without even looking at the walls.
- Then it is time for school and breakfast. I made sure your homework and backpack was all ready for the morning. Where I would make sure everything was in there for the school day. I remember both your backpacks were sometimes overfilled and I had to help you carry them. The moments of eating breakfast, where your mother asked sometimes and gave you choices of what to eat. Most of the time it was cereal. Where the milk was still in the bowl as you only ate the cereal. Where you both watched tv an watched your cartoons. Then, you would bring your bowl to the sink and barely reach and put it in the sink. Your mother was always good at putting stuff away, and making sure everything was clean. Your Mom was the one who made sure that you were always feed, and we never rushed. She would say now, you can do it, only three more bites and that will be fine.
- Then it was time to get dressed, always your clothes was out and neatly in place. So, many times you needed help, as I made sure that you were dressed properly. You would do the funniest things like putting your socks inside out or your shirt on backwards. Just your mother and me, felt like it was so adorable. Then your mother would tell you to brush your teeth, as I helped put on the toothpaste. You had these tiny brushes, where you would leave the toothpaste still in the sink. Then it was time to go to school. Where you would be in your car/booster seats with your backpacks in the backseat. That is where your mother would leave and I would go to work. Sometimes I did drive you to your Grandma’s house, but it was mostly your mother in the morning. For the most part, I would think of you both at work, and thinking of what you both were doing. Nolan, you were in school and you would behave and be a quiet person. Ciara, it is difficult to recall what you did, since you were just a baby. Your mother would call me at work and say, their snacks are on the kitchen table, and that their dinner is ready to heat up. Then is at night when I would pick you both up. I had over an hour or so to take care of you both.
- Your mother would come home from work and we would all rush to the door to see you. The sight of seeing your mother, made me feel proud. I can hear her voice right now, saying and smiling to you both, well hi there. The energy is being with me right now. Then the questions came from you children, Mom can we eat this or have a some candy now? I would tell your mother that they sometimes ate good while sometimes you didn’t. That’s where she looked at your plate, and said “three more bites for those chicken nuggets”. Then we played some games, mostly tag and hide and seek. Hide and seek was our favourite game together. We would play till I had to say that was enough. For some reason, I also watched were you would hide, I think that was more of a concern for you both, If I couldn’t find you. Because it had happened a few times, where I could not find you no more. Your mother would smile, as she always did. For some reason, your mother really never played with us, it was always us (Nolan and Ciara). It was our time together. If we didn’t eat dinner, we would go out to the restaurant. Our favourite place to take you was a family restaurant in St. Clair Beach. Everyone commenting on how a lovely family that we have. You would colour the kids pictures, and we would order the kids meals for you both. We never gave you pop, it was always milk or juice. Then it was time to go to the stores, where I love to push you in the shopping cart. Your mother always gave me the shopping cart, while she placed items in the cart. She would start talking but I so fixed on both of you. It was like Christmas eve, waiting for Christmas to come. Then, we came home. Where you mother always knew it was 8:00P.M., that we would have to get ready for bed.
- Then brush your teeth again and took a bath while I had to put on your pajamas. Your mother did so much, while I tried my best to help out.
- Then you would go to your rooms for bed, and watch TV., it would only take about 15 minutes to fall asleep.
I just want to tell you both that I tried to make a difference in your lives and I will continue to do so, because I love your mother, and I won’t nothing come in between you and us. I also love all three of you so much. That I am stronger and given the opportunity I will prove to you three that I have your best interest which is all of together as a family unit.
Thank you for being who you just are.
Love Dad